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So, um, OCD. OCD. OCD. OCD. OCD. Sorry. Gotta do the 5′s. (It’s way more complicated than that).

Hi there, welcome back here! One of the things I have to go through as a perfectionist is the fact that I have to do somethings in my own way in order to have a satisfactory outcome for me, thus the reason I can never pass a math test that requires me to show work, not only the answer. I will always get the right answer, but I always get more than half of the points chopped off because I don’t show the way the professor insists I need to show. Enough talking about math. Let’s talk about video games!

One of the first things I do with a video game when I get one is finishing the entire thing off the first day. Not done in a day? No problem. I’m pulling an all-nighter. Why do I do this? Because I want my game to be perfect. I need my game to be perfect. You can click on the thumbnail on your left here of Command & Conquer: Generals match I played recently. This is how I play. If I don’t do this, I can’t finish the other team. “I don’t have the heart to” might sound too innocent to be true. I need that perfect game. I need perfection. Look at the Counter Strike record I attached at the end of this post. I’m “GowWwaD”. Nice record, right? It will take you a couple of years to pull off that high of a kill/death rate (I’ve had a 40-0 strike a couple of times before this server), but the problem is I didn’t have a perfect game here. 100 kills to 3 deaths, and I still felt weird. I still felt bad. Not for the other teams, two from Command & Conquer Generals whom already had gone, but for my game.

Don’t confuse my perfectionism with Symmetry OCD, although I have to admit I do have some symmetry problems I am trying to overcome. I’ve lost a lot because of perfectionism, unlike many people think. I can’t insist how bad it can be at times. I need perfection. Notice how many times I’ve mentioned that? Yes. Because I need my point to be clear. I need my point to be perfect.

If I correct your facebook statuses or comments, excuse me. I am a grammar five-o. I’m sorry for that, but if only there were no “their/they’re/there” in our English, life would’ve been so good. People who don’t know how to use them piss me off. I’m sorry. Again. I don’t judge you. Well, I do.

You won’t notice all of this until the time we work together. Only then you’ll regret doing so, but in the long run, if you keep up and build that standard of yours higher than you started with, and connect it with mine, only then you will not only not-be disappointed, but regret the fact that you regretted the work at first. It’s all about art here. Video games were used here as an example I can show case to you without much explanation. Other things do exist, but they’re much more complex to explain than video games. Plus, who doesn’t like video games? =)

Much love,

Apo Avedissian

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Hi there, welcome back to Apotize.com, today’s article will be a vlog instead. Tattoos used to be a huge “controversial” topic, sometimes taboo, but recently have become a modern styling way, which I definitely do not agree with. Get your tattoos, be very careful of dirty needles, and take good care of the tattoo spot until it heals. Pick your tattoo after spending weeks analyzing the design and imagining having that on you for the rest of your life. Tattoo removals are very expensive and not accurate, so might as well have a good choice rather than getting one done fast. Don’t rush it. If you don’t like a designer’s design, don’t feel ashamed or scared to ask to change it. The tattoo will be on you for the rest of your life.

Oh, and from personal experience, tattoos are addicting. Believe it or not.

Enjoy =)

Much love,

Apo Avedissian

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In-N-Out Burger

My point of doing this diet was to prove to my self that I can quit my daily habit of years and stop it whenever I want to. I did not plan it. I did not sit down and practice for it. I just decided to cut something I ate at least twice a day for a month, and I did it successfully. Although it was rough, it was done. It might not be rough to you, but think about quitting something you do a lot on daily basis and imagine that being cut. Imagine not driving for a month. Intense ? That’s what the burger and soda diet did to me. This diet made me realize what a strong will power you and I both have. Soda, soda, soda, nothing but crap, but hey, I love soda, and you probably do too. My point is done. Seza Baghdadlian, my partner in crime, thank you for joining the diet program right during the start of it, you gave me support and reminded me on the days I forgot about the diet or tried to drink soda =) Off to enjoy some more soda now. On to the next one ;)

Much love,

Apo Avedissian

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Have you ever wondered how can a little kid, or a man, realize that he is color blind?

How do you know that you’re not color blind?

Let’s think this through together. If you were born seeing normal red as purple, you grew up seeing apples in purple; mom, dad, or anyone who takes care of you will note to you that apples are “red” since they see the real red. The code name will be “red”. Now think about this. Everytime you see a real “red” bus, as everyone else sees red, your eyes and brain actually see purple, but you don’t know that purple is called purple. You have learned that the purple you see is called “red”. You’ve learned that that specific color you saw is called that specific name.

You grow old calling trees green, when in reality, you probably see them in yellow, but you don’t know that others see it in another way. You see it one way, and you have been taught that trees are green. Therefore, anything green you see, you will call yellow. In reality, people will see the green and think you see it too, because you called it so without knowing that you called your yellow “green”.

Reality: Doesn’t exist.

We create reality. Everything has been created. No, I’m not talking about the Matrix Trilogy here. Lol.

Our reality is so simple yet we make it so complicated. A beautiful world, almost the same as Pandora from Avatar. They had everything we have on Earth, but we never take for granted. The trees, we felt bad for. The people, we felt sorry for. In reality, Pandora is Earth. The flowers look different, the trees, the people look different, but other than that we have the same concept. Oh, and, obviously, we’re not all blue basketball players. Nor speak Na’avi. Well, maybe the latter. Nerds.

We need to think deep. We need to solve our problems by what we have, not by inventing new things to solve one problem, then have twenty side effects for either the economy, nature, or us. We need to be more sophisticated and thoughtful. Common sense needs to be common. We need to analyze this world. We need to know what goes on around us, and see what could fix things.

So many people go through so much, while the most our brain can take is how to “head-shot” somebody in a video game, or the ladies and their concern about the fashion side of all of these actresses on red carpet looking, to me, very funny.

Think about sufferers and ways to help them. Think about you. The OCD sufferers, the ADD sufferers. I’m not talking about the kids who claim having it. I’m talking about the people who have been in hospitals and can’t see the sun light because of some diseases many pretend to have for attention.

This one’s for you HD. HD Magic: Think Deeper Into Your Reality. Check him out, he got some great talent and will teach you about reality in his own ways.

Much love,

Apo Avedissian

Okay, so before I even say hi, I have to say this. What in the world are you bloggers excited about for finding a chance of basic life on one of Saturn’s moons? I’m sorry but, “awesome” should definitely be replaced by “holy shit”.

Why would you want to discover aliens? Humans, alone, can’t take care of them selves and the land they live on (also called: Earth). How the hell would we take care of aliens, now? This is only after the assumption that aliens are cool friendly creatures who are going to TOTALLY understand us and our mentality and lifestyles. Ladies and gentlemen, if you called a bad driver “probably an Asian,” odds are you will not survive against aliens, mentally that is. We don’t know how strong they are physically. If they’re not this smart, then they’re animals. That being said, no animal will just come and befriend you. This is not going to end up with a nice finishing touch. This will end up in a disaster.
It’s not Buzz from Toy Story 3 who’s going to save you. It is you. It is our troops. 6 Billion of us and we can barely take care of our neighbor, our friends. How are we going to do this?

Okay, now that my panic session is done, I want to say that, no, aliens were never and will never be cool.
Civilizations have ended because when one meets the other, they just destroy each other. That’s how every single civilized city has fallen. Is Earth next? Hmm, dun dun dun..

Now that you’re done laughing, I suggest you go watch Toy Story 3 once it’s out. No particular reason. I just like aliens. Not by me though. *points up* “E.T. GO HOME”.

Apo Avedissian

First of all, let me clarify something. Football is football. There’s no sport called “soccer”. Football is football. The sport is played by foot, thus the name.
Okay, now I get to express some more feelings. I’ve noticed that around this time every 4 years, everyone around me becomes a World Cup fan and a football watcher. No. I will burst your bubble. You’re not.
If you don’t watch “soccer”, you don’t deserve to be the commentator of the FIFA World Cup series. Period.

Please don’t argue and discuss football history if you are one of those people. If you watched the World Cup last time, and 2002, and 1998, and as far as you could remember, that doesn’t make you a football expert, nor a fan. That makes you a bandwagon. Yes. That term doesn’t only work with switching towards winning teams, but also switching towards popular sports at the time.

Now that I let these feelings out, I can get to talk about the games and the teams.
Brazil fans, where you at ? =)
England, Spain, Germany, Italy, and all of these amazing teams we’ve been so used to, but what can I say, these teams switched up every 4 years, and you have these big teams leaving early, and me having to explain to my high school teachers why I missed specific days for these games. Let’s not talk about that now, though.

College, this is going to be tough, but I choose the World Cup over you. Yes, I did say that, professor.
Fellas, and a few ladies, let’s do this. Count down time:

Apo Avedissian

It’s been a while since the last time I ate a burger. About 6 days ago, I started a diet for a month. A NO-HAMBURGERS diet. How has it been for me ? Not that great.

I used to eat a lot of burgers, two or three at a time on a regular meal; 4 or 5 if I skipped lunch and the burgers were my lunch instead. After taking pride of the 4 burgers that I sat down and finished at In N Out or Habit, I randomly made the choice to quit burgers for a month. May 17th, 2010 marked the first day. My daily burger eating habit (oh look, what a coincidence, it’s just like the restaurant’s name .. SUBLIMINAL MESSAGES) got destroyed.
Recently, I’ve noticed that I would get depressed if I didn’t eat at least two burgers in a day. I thought to my self, what if I am addicted? Then laughed at it. Soon enough, I decided to take a serious step towards it and cut the bullshit. I can’t and shouldn’t lie to my self anymore. I am addicted. Four burgers a day is addiction.

I sat down and planned this one month long, burger-free, diet I started. That night, I watched Super Size Me. Not the best documentary you’d want to watch if you’re addicted. Seeing him eat the burgers, despite throwing up afterwards, still made me crave a juicy burger. I couldn’t do anything about it but shut up and take it. I got my self into this, and I’m going all in.

Now that almost a week has passed, I can’t lie and say that I haven’t craved a burger, but I want to step the game up a little bit. Another poisonous thing I’m addicted to is soda. Pepsi, Coke, Dr. Pepper, Mountain Dew, you name it … So, after further planning, I decided to start a one month long NO-SODA diet starting today, May 23rd, 2010.

May 17 – June 17 : NO BURGERS
May 23 – June 23 : NO SODA

If I can pull these two processes off, I will stretch them out to even further final dates. I love these two, but I understand that they are poisonous not only to me but to many. If you’re up for the task, try it your self. Do a weekly diet. Jump onto the month.

Let’s do this.

Apo Avedissian