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So, um, OCD. OCD. OCD. OCD. OCD. Sorry. Gotta do the 5′s. (It’s way more complicated than that).

Hi there, welcome back here! One of the things I have to go through as a perfectionist is the fact that I have to do somethings in my own way in order to have a satisfactory outcome for me, thus the reason I can never pass a math test that requires me to show work, not only the answer. I will always get the right answer, but I always get more than half of the points chopped off because I don’t show the way the professor insists I need to show. Enough talking about math. Let’s talk about video games!

One of the first things I do with a video game when I get one is finishing the entire thing off the first day. Not done in a day? No problem. I’m pulling an all-nighter. Why do I do this? Because I want my game to be perfect. I need my game to be perfect. You can click on the thumbnail on your left here of Command & Conquer: Generals match I played recently. This is how I play. If I don’t do this, I can’t finish the other team. “I don’t have the heart to” might sound too innocent to be true. I need that perfect game. I need perfection. Look at the Counter Strike record I attached at the end of this post. I’m “GowWwaD”. Nice record, right? It will take you a couple of years to pull off that high of a kill/death rate (I’ve had a 40-0 strike a couple of times before this server), but the problem is I didn’t have a perfect game here. 100 kills to 3 deaths, and I still felt weird. I still felt bad. Not for the other teams, two from Command & Conquer Generals whom already had gone, but for my game.

Don’t confuse my perfectionism with Symmetry OCD, although I have to admit I do have some symmetry problems I am trying to overcome. I’ve lost a lot because of perfectionism, unlike many people think. I can’t insist how bad it can be at times. I need perfection. Notice how many times I’ve mentioned that? Yes. Because I need my point to be clear. I need my point to be perfect.

If I correct your facebook statuses or comments, excuse me. I am a grammar five-o. I’m sorry for that, but if only there were no “their/they’re/there” in our English, life would’ve been so good. People who don’t know how to use them piss me off. I’m sorry. Again. I don’t judge you. Well, I do.

You won’t notice all of this until the time we work together. Only then you’ll regret doing so, but in the long run, if you keep up and build that standard of yours higher than you started with, and connect it with mine, only then you will not only not-be disappointed, but regret the fact that you regretted the work at first. It’s all about art here. Video games were used here as an example I can show case to you without much explanation. Other things do exist, but they’re much more complex to explain than video games. Plus, who doesn’t like video games? =)

Much love,

Apo Avedissian