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I think different. I think out of the box. I mean, think about it. Who starts a blog by saying that? Different thinkers, right? Right.

I’ve been a “different thinker” ever since I was born. When I was born, I was washed and cleaned up, and while I was brought into my mother’s arms, crying, I said, “why are hospital walls so depressing, mom? Why not add some colors?”. I continued crying. I don’t think anybody understood me then, because no one paid attention to what I said. Who knows, I might have mumbled it. Ey, I went through a lot of crying. I can’t be blamed for mumbling, can I?

Hey! I finally know why I’m so connected to Stewie from Family Guy. (Except the homosexuality). Hah!

One of the people I began reading about has been Howie Mandel. The host of Deal or No Deal, and a judge on America’s Got Talent. I became more interested in his character when I found out about his OCD “problem” as he calls it. While reading his book, “Here’s the Deal: Don’t Touch Me”, I learned that he has been a “different thinker” as well. However, I learned that in order to please society around him, he chose to change his habits towards the “normal” thinkers. He states that he had been wrong his entire life about the pranks he pulled and the ideas he had. I very much disagree with his new mentality. Just because a tv show gives you a hosting job, you don’t just go all out and tell people you NOW love them and appreciate them and understand how stupid and immature the old-you was.

That being said, you need to understand how I think. I’m very open minded, although I don’t think it’s right for people to call them selves that, only others can judge how open you could be, but I do believe that. I will tell you that you’ve gained weight. I will tell you that you lost weight. I will tell you your new haircut(fellas)/hair style(ladies) doesn’t match you,.. It’s not because I’m a “dickhead”. I am a realist. You need to understand that I don’t say things with bad intentions. Why should I be mad if you come and tell me that I’ve gained or lost weight? After all, I’m the one who doesn’t care about it that let it happen, aren’t I? I mean, I did gain weight. Didn’t I? Or why else would you tell me that? If you put the gym before your school, I might not notice you losing weight, but I will mention you being more in shape; however, at the same time, I will notice how not going to school has affected you, like understanding this long sentence’s meaning ;) But if you skip gym because of school, then I will congratulate you on your Bachelor’s degree, but will mention how “fat” you’ve gotten. See how it works? I don’t understand why it’s such a tabboo.
That being said, you need to understand there are things people don’t control, like sickness. When that comes, it’s a little bit different. That’s when you have no control, and you shouldn’t make fun of it no matter how small the problem is. But weight, looks, and everything of that matter is your choice. I will mention it. If you take it up the ass, it will only show how your self esteem is and how bored you are that you look for anything to get a problem out of. If you laugh it out, and not get hurt, that’s when not only I, but you too will know how high of a self esteem you have. You’ll know how much you appreciate your own mentality. Your brain. Screw the looks, right? Right. Worry when people tell you you’re not successful. Don’t take it up the ass. Learn from it. Appreciate them telling you that. Work it out. Unless, of course, you don’t want to be successful deep inside, then that’s another story, but who, after all, doesn’t want some sort of success in their lives? Depending on the definition of success to you, of course. For one it could be 20 buildings in Las Vegas, to others it could be a son or daughter going to college and having a family. Critisism is the best thing that has ever happened to anyone in this world. I feed off of it. Without it, I can’t function. Period.

Much love,

Apo Avedissian

So, recently, I’ve had to explain my ‘sense of quietness’ to many new people I’ve met, and that usually ends up very clear from my side, but I am pretty sure the ones I meet will take a couple of years of forgetting what I said then one day it just clicks. Do you know the feeling I’m talking about? Well, I am quiet, and I am a kid, thus, a quiet kid. I am also a mind-fuck every now and then.
Hi there, welcome back to the blog =)
You’re probably reading and saying “with all of those 3 paragraph essays, or ‘Apotizers’ of yours, you’re trying to convince me that you’re quiet?”
Yup.
If you’ve met me personally, you’d know that I’m not the type to talk. I do not have conversations with people I don’t know. I think that’s very fake. I will not stand there telling you what accomplishments I’ve made in life while you tell me yours and we try to impress each other while waiting for something or someone so we get it over with. I’m sure you’re familiar with the image I’m talking about. I will literally sit in a room with one person for 24 hours, and not say a single word through out the entire 24 hours, but psycho-analyze the living shit out of the person without them knowing. If I got a penny for every right guess I’d make about the next move the person is going to make, I would.. well, I wouldn’t be sitting here blogging about it. Let’s just keep it at that. A billionaire. Imagine being stuck on an elevator with me. No let’s just hope that doesn’t happen. Mwahahaha.

That being said, I also need to mention that I am not an anti-social. You can try me. But again, I might be in the mood of some mind-fucking, and that might not work out very awkward-free for you.

I think a lot. I will psycho analyze everything and everyone around me. I do not share feelings with people, but enjoy the feeling of realizing my guess about your next move was right. It makes me smile. If you’re standing next to me, and I just smile at something while I’m standing next to you, you should know that something just passed you. I caught something that not a lot of people saw. What ever it is, I caught it, and damn does it feel good every time. I also have to say that I never judge people. This might sound very judgemental to you, but I assure you it is not. I actually do not share or let any of these ideas affect my beliefs of the person until I meet them and things happen from then on, whether its personal or business. Mainly, however, I can very easily predict people’s next steps. Thus the reason of the very small circle of close friends of mine. Okay, this week’s homework is to find out their names one by one. =)

Be careful the next time we have a convo. I might meet you again in 20 years and recite our conversation to you. Don’t be surprised.

To be continued…
Much love,
Apo Avedissian