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To some of you, my title “you party while I work” will sound like a complaint; Actually, it isn’t. It’s the total opposite.
Let me clarify. I love this. I love writing. I love creating. This is my hobby.
Saturday night, what are you doing? Partying? Clubbing? I’m here getting work done! Why? Because I’m relaxing. My work is my vacation.

“What cause I been in the lab wit a pen and a pad
Tryna get this damn label off?” Dr. Dre

One of my favorite lines in music is this Dr. Dre line he performs in Forgot About Dre, featuring Eminem.

We sometimes like lyrics because we like the idea and the intention of it, but other times, you just happen to know what the artist is saying, and you know exactly what his position is on that topic.

Spending day and night for a week only to render a music video the way you want is what I do. Yes, OCD might have something to do with it. Perfectionism as well. But this is my work. Monster, anyone? My Vacation, go and brag about it. Haha. Alex Trebor there!

Why should I go and spend 2 hours at a hooka place when I can sit here and plan to open my own hooka place? (Just an example, no I am not opening up a new hooka place. I don’t even smoke to begin with.) I can get so much work done without having to be there. Asthma, anyone?

By now, I hope not everyone is offended because I am not targeting every single human being that goes to hooka places; hooka places are just an example. One of hundreds. My word is aimed at those who waste their full lives there and end up with nothing left. You might read this and say “I feel bad for them,” but truth is there’s a chance that anyone could just lose everything in a matter of seconds. Whether it’s fate or mistakes, it depends on your mentality, but at the end, there’s a way to better secure it not happening.

I have faith in a lot of people, and it’s sad when I see a few who lose their power and throw it on something else that does not give them any gain. It’s their lives, after all, and I have absolutely no right to “boss” them around. But it hurts seeing so much potential to create so much good, go towards the bad and gets wasted.

If you need advice, I’m always here to help. I’m not a lawyer, and I’m not certified in anything, however, I do have personal thoughts, which you are not obligated to do or follow, and are more than welcome to just hear. If you are stuck between making a decision, ask me. If your friends keep bullying you, or if you’re scared from being called names, email me. I will try and help you become the cool one and get your name out instead of being pulled back. Don’t let negativity rule you. You’re your own self, after all.

Until then, good night.

Much love,

Apo Avedissian

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So, um, OCD. OCD. OCD. OCD. OCD. Sorry. Gotta do the 5′s. (It’s way more complicated than that).

Hi there, welcome back here! One of the things I have to go through as a perfectionist is the fact that I have to do somethings in my own way in order to have a satisfactory outcome for me, thus the reason I can never pass a math test that requires me to show work, not only the answer. I will always get the right answer, but I always get more than half of the points chopped off because I don’t show the way the professor insists I need to show. Enough talking about math. Let’s talk about video games!

One of the first things I do with a video game when I get one is finishing the entire thing off the first day. Not done in a day? No problem. I’m pulling an all-nighter. Why do I do this? Because I want my game to be perfect. I need my game to be perfect. You can click on the thumbnail on your left here of Command & Conquer: Generals match I played recently. This is how I play. If I don’t do this, I can’t finish the other team. “I don’t have the heart to” might sound too innocent to be true. I need that perfect game. I need perfection. Look at the Counter Strike record I attached at the end of this post. I’m “GowWwaD”. Nice record, right? It will take you a couple of years to pull off that high of a kill/death rate (I’ve had a 40-0 strike a couple of times before this server), but the problem is I didn’t have a perfect game here. 100 kills to 3 deaths, and I still felt weird. I still felt bad. Not for the other teams, two from Command & Conquer Generals whom already had gone, but for my game.

Don’t confuse my perfectionism with Symmetry OCD, although I have to admit I do have some symmetry problems I am trying to overcome. I’ve lost a lot because of perfectionism, unlike many people think. I can’t insist how bad it can be at times. I need perfection. Notice how many times I’ve mentioned that? Yes. Because I need my point to be clear. I need my point to be perfect.

If I correct your facebook statuses or comments, excuse me. I am a grammar five-o. I’m sorry for that, but if only there were no “their/they’re/there” in our English, life would’ve been so good. People who don’t know how to use them piss me off. I’m sorry. Again. I don’t judge you. Well, I do.

You won’t notice all of this until the time we work together. Only then you’ll regret doing so, but in the long run, if you keep up and build that standard of yours higher than you started with, and connect it with mine, only then you will not only not-be disappointed, but regret the fact that you regretted the work at first. It’s all about art here. Video games were used here as an example I can show case to you without much explanation. Other things do exist, but they’re much more complex to explain than video games. Plus, who doesn’t like video games? =)

Much love,

Apo Avedissian